2014. Has been quiet.

Hello my beloved phantom readers.

I surprise myself by deciding to put an entry on the eve of Hajj celebration. No reasons really.

How's 2014?

Mine, I've got me some ups & downs.

The highlight has got to be my Japan trip in February. Pure bliss. All because of Allah's willing.

The down (one of them) I came to realise that long distance sucks.

The real reason why I abruptly posted an entry tonight was because of this blog:

The College Prepster

The writer had me at this particular entry;

OWNERSHIP

If you're over 30 and pretty much lost like me, or things simply refused to fall into plans, go and have a read. Might do you good. Well it got me into posting this... at 3am! That's something.
Thank you Carly. I love your blog so much.

2014 is ending soon.

Why I do feel this way? Still?  *gesture: L on my forehead

11.12.13

What a beautiful date today is. It's momentous too as today is the 11th day of the 12th month of the 13th year in the millennium and at 14:15 and 16 secs this afternoon the date and time will briefly read: 11.12.13 14:15:16.  There won't be another date with three consecutive numbers in this century. Just wow!

Because today is a special date, a lot of couples grabbed the opportunity to get hitched. The famous of the lot has got to be our falsies empress, Rozita Che Wan and her 10 year-younger lad (or was it 15?), Zain Zaidin. The couple is so famous of late, for their wedding is fully sponsored by certain jewellery chain, amounting to an absurd figure of RM13mil. Yes you read that right, RM13,000,000.00.

Che Ta & Zain source

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Another celebs' wedding held today is Malaysia's renown fashion designer, Jovian Mandagie and his petite fiancee, Nina Sabrina Ismail Sabri, whose father and brother need no introduction. Sweet couple. The wedding is tad grandeur than the former but it was kept on the lower tone, I assume because of 'who' her daddy is. This couple is celebrated on Instagram, nevertheless. A very famous insta couple that their hashtag #joviannina appeared numerous times on the explore tab. Cheers to both of you.

Jovian & Nina source

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And I'm kinda bummed out that my S.O is not here with me. We could have spent the day by watching movie, go for fine dining or simply cuddling up on the couch playing with our phone (like we always do)... I miss you so much boo... Kiss kiss.

Just to post an entry that marked the significance of today's date, I'm listing out today's happenings.

1. Backache, right side, shooting pain.
2. Skipped lunch, had a 40min nap instead.
3. Had fried bee hoon & hot coffee at 3pm. (i don't drink hot beverages, that's an achievement *makebelieve)
4. I wore black executive blouse, black pants, black shoes and glittering shawl in raspberry.
5. Went out with parents to The Spring (where else), had beef kuey teow. Aimed 3 pairs of blouses at Parkson and 5 pair of work shoes at Primavera.
6. Had a revelation, I think I'm so in love with dusty pink and champagne colour combo.  

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On the same note, I fell hard with Jason Derulo's "Will You Marry Me"

Can you tell that they're crazy in love? Me too!

Alright... that's about it.

I've got to post this before midnight.

Till then phantom readers. Sleep well.

December 6th tik tok tik tok

I was prompted to write an entry after I realized that a month from today, I shall turn 34.

Yikes.

2014 is showing up soon too, and as I stated in my previous entry; there's no sighting of resolution.

But boy, do I have a wish list.

And one that is already sitting pretty on it is;

TO TRAVEL.

I was first and foremost inspired by my sister who travelled to the UK, Paris, Amsterdam and Milan under the pack-and-leave-I-don't-care circumstances. I want that. To be able to leave without thinking too much. Just travel. Just go.

My dream destination? Shhh. I don't want to jinx it.

To be 34 means I've got to upgrade myself in the wisdom department, must eat responsibly,  collect not hoard, and refresh my fardhu ain practice in order to enhance my iman. 

I don't believe in charting the course of my destiny towards long term goal, hence I don't do diet.

Short term will work just fine as I'm a firm believer that everyone has to start somewhere. Some perhaps have got to start anew. And a few must wait for another opportunity come knocking again.

Now please, let me enjoy the remaining of December. 

#wishingandhoping

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November 2013. Status: OK.

Not my room, unfortunately.

No, that's not my room. It's far fetched.

You know how some people would list down their new year's resolutions now that it's drawing near? Well I have mine. But it's not a resolution. It's a prediction. Or rather a newly found penchant.

I think my colour for 2014 would be raspberry. Raspberry and teal. Saw a Guess handbag two nights ago and it was in raspberry. Love it so much I can't simply sleep on the idea of possessing it. Get the bag I must.

There. Random. I know.

Finding Happiness in July

Assalamualaikum readers,

My last entry was way back in February. I know I made a promise (to myself) that I'd put at least an entry per week but what do you know, future has a funny way of manifesting, one stunt at a time...hence the long hiatus.

Skipped 4 months, fast forward to today, I'm no longer with the top 4 university in the country. I have pulled the contract plug (wish I had done that sooner) for good and settled with the top 24 instead. Still bearing the same post, what delight me the most of this shift is for the fact that I'm moving back to my hometown, Kuching. Now isn't that a blessing?

As for my significant other, he's been very supportive and we decided to succumb everything to Allah swt, for He is the Almighty and only He gets to decide the portion of your rezeki, the duration of your jodoh and the finale of your life. Allahuakhbar. I could ask no more from Him for I think my prayer has been answered; I am finally a permanent employee.

I would be lying if I said that things just fall into places the minute I submitted my acceptance letter. No, in fact I was struggling, to this very day. First, just days before I got the precious email from my current registrar, my husband and I moved to a new place, rented still but boy was it homely. I was lucky enough to have it filled with new stuff, courtesy of my parents (told you I was blessed!). Writing this makes me miss the house even more. I only realized that I got so attached to it when during facetime, I asked my husband to capture my living hall and my kitchen and even asked him to open the refrigerator!

And of course, the person I shared the house with... my husband. This year has been turbulent for the both of us, especially now that he's back and forth to JB and KL; with me being ridiculously unhappy at work, suffice to say there were things thrown at my old place, tears were incessantly shed... and the new house somewhat saved my marriage. It amazed me too how routine can bite you in the as* and to put my disorderly relationship back on track was no abc nor 123... It's when we worked on the new house that we found our mojo back and realized we only have each other to love and to hold for now. The relationship department has improved tremendously since then. *wink*

Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah swt... Again and again he saved me. The job offer came in May and I was ecstatic! Just when I thought that things would just keep crumbling down, life has finally shown me some light. I'm constantly adjusting even though I'm in my own home, my very own room. I must admit I'm a little concern that at 33 I'm being pampered by mom to a point that I get to relax after work, unlike in S.Kembangan, where life's pretty much dictated by the wall clock. I'm indeed grateful.

Once in a while, now that I'm here, I miss my former office buddies so much. Even though the old place seemed like fire and brimstone, I treasure the friendships I've made over the years and they could very much be the reason why I stayed that long. And here at my new place, I'm optimistic that I'll find a fun bunch too.

Let's hope that my mantra 'it's always greener on the other side' rings true this time.

At this very second, life has been good, that I can safely say.

Happy quokka 

Exodus

Well,

Hello February. *rub eyes profusely*

It would be so cliché of me to exclaim, "Where have all the time gone?"

But I kid you not, where is it?

Hence, here's a quick update.

I want to blog still. (that's update no.1)

As you can see, that's quite a melancholic title I have for this entry but every fibre of my being screams evacuate!

At 33, I finally feel that I'm stuck in a rut! And I hate it. I feel that there's no way out, I'm constantly asking myself, can I get through the day?

When I self-diagnosed, I discover that, perhaps I'm unhappy.

I simply am not happy.

At work and home. I am struggling.

I don't know if 'running away' is the only best solution as it the only thing that lingered my mind lately.

I want to escape my life but not to start anew but just to take a break.

If ever I'm allowed to just ask myself this, is my life worth living?

Where can I find happiness and actually wanting to live it?

This too shall pass, they said but I feel that mine keeps on coming, overwhelming at times.

As we speak, the emotional stacks kept on piling.

I'm utterly scared that I might lose my composure and just burst.

I think I need help.

Perhaps I should just run.

33 in 2013

Assalamualaikum self,

I know the year 2012 has brought you so much pain and failure that you thought picking yourself up again is almost impossible. But you've just got to do it because life is too short to feel sorry for yourself.

And at 32 you finally became an aunt to your beautiful nieces. Please be grateful.

Here's what you should remind yourself in your 2013 pursuit;

Life is what YOU make of it

Whenever there's hardship, Allah shall provide ease

and that, this too, shall pass.

Happy 33rd Birthday Sabrina!

33 and fabulous!

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