Letting go is hard to do...

Today, I don't feel like waking up.
For I know that today I have to do something so despicable ever in my adult life.
Even the weather seems mad at me.
But I have no choice and I've exercised my options.
In order to move forward we have to let some things go, even if they're your beloved.

Allah ya rabb, have mercy and do forgive me on my decision. Please release me from the agonizing guilt.
As much as the deed is very wrong, I have to, I must.

My furry friends. Forgive mommy & daddy. We have to let you go.

All 11 of you will be dearly missed.

Ya Allah, give me strength.